Living just to keep going
Going just to be sane
Jay-Z | Long Live The Illuminati
Jay-Z’s latest album “Magna Carta Holy Grail” dropped last week leaving fans with mixed feelings. Some love, some hate it but regardless of that fact, the entire album wasn’t released.
Due to unknown circumstances, Jay-Z was forced to cut back on one song for political reasons. He met with Obama 2 days before the album release and the next day, he immediately removed the track called “Long Live the Illuminati” from the album. According to reports, the two were locked in a room with several other white males in their 50s and older for about 8 hours. The men were unidentified but were not seen leaving the room at any point of the day or the day after. The only people to leave were Jay-Z and Barack Obama. The room was empty afterwards leaving no explanation to where the men could have gone. Unless there was a secret entrance in the room, which isn’t unlikely.
The albums were already being distributed and ready for selling when Jay-Z abruptly demanded and recall of every single album. He then issued the correct version of the album with this song removed.
However, he forgot one thing. A week earlier he was holding a sweepstakes on Hot 97 for one lucky fan to win the album before it’s release date. And that was me. And I was able to hear the entire album. I thought it was weird that he would include a track like this because it reveals a lot of political scandals and things that are in store for not just America but the world as a whole. And it’s pretty scary, let me tell you. I managed to rip the audio for all of you guys to hear. So yeah, here it is. Hope you guys don’t freak out that much (but you probably will).
That’s how I need to explode right now. I need to push the elephant’s foot off of my chest in a cosmic ray of pure strength and let it all out. As of late, it’s been becoming very apparent to me that I don’t know shit. Like I actually know nothing. And that it’s because you can’t put life in a box. You can’t just label experiences and dissect them and analyze them and expect yourself to be happy. Because that is fucking exhausting. What I’m learning is that I need to let go. I need to find that stream of consciousness inside me that is purely me and let myself tap into that. I need to do what I want to do because it’s what I need to do. All too often I feel as though I am allowing all of these other thoughts and people and experiences and items and notifications and bullshit clutter my brain to the point where I can’t seem to see myself in all of it. In the sea of bullshit, my little raft of sanity is nowhere to be found. What I need to do is find that raft and turn it into a goddamn yacht. What I need to do is stop worrying about the little things and start focusing on the things that really matter. What I need to do is release myself from the jaws of the belief that there is a right way to live these insane lives of ours. And acknowledge the fact that what has worked for one person, very may well not work at all for me. What I need to do is stop comparing myself to people. What I need to do is appreciate life more. To search out the good things. To create my own happiness. What I need to do is stop thinking so much.
The about that is that it’s all fine and dandy to think you know what it is that you need to do. Actually doing it, on the other hand, is something else. And the thing about that? Well the thing about that is that you don’t even know that once everything is said and done… Once you have sorted through the sea of bullshit and rebuilt your raft. Once you have done everything that you need to do. The thing is… The thing is that only after you have done everything will you know if you actually did anything.
if jesus died for our sins that means we get to sin more right